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| Right when everything was supposedly said and done, right when I was picking myself up from what you broke, and right when I was accepting, you come running back in the picture. I'd be lieing if I said everything was okay.. I definately ain't no pushover. I still can't fully accept the things you've done, and the things you've said to me. You neglected me, and left me in the dust over some assumption you made without proving me guilty. But time and time again, I stuck it out. All the hurt, tears, and sleepless nights. I'll still stand my ground til now, and ain't no guilt or shame are carried on my shoulders.
I love you so damn much, I'm really starting to think I love you more than I love myself. I know I'm stupid for that one, but it's just that I invested, shared & sacrificed so much for us, you are what really makes me whole. I felt so empty being without you, really. But right when you turned your back on me, I was still standing with open arms hoping you'd realize. Or you can't say I wasn't, because I tried. But I guess when someone doesn't want to meet you halfway, you got nothing else left to do than to walk away. Mark, you gotta learn to trust me. I need a guy who isn't so quick to give up on me. I know you get cautious & paranoid because of my surroundings, but I promise I'll always be coming home to you. You gotta believe me off toppp, I know that's what you want & need, and I've been nothing but that.
"She rolls the mile makes you smile all the while being true Don't take for granted the passion that she has for you You will lose if you choose to refuse to put her first She will if she can't find a man who knows her worth"
As for my "friends." Ya'll could call me the biggest fool or the dumbest bitch, I really gives a flying fuckkk.. Yeah, he's hurt me a great deal, but that's the way love goes sometimes. Can't really judge if you haven't been through it. It's easier said than done, I'll tell ya that.. I appreciate you guys being there when I'm hurting and whenever I'm at my downest, but at the same time I don't. You guys talk when I ain't there, but then again you guys are all sweet to me face to face? Shit ain't coo.. Just be real, I'm allllll ears, you guys know that. I'd rather cry over the truth, than to smile over some bullshit. And I understand, ya'll just lookin' out, but come talk to me, not about me is all I'm sayin. You guys don't know. You guys don't know how sweet he really is opposed to the asshole he appears to be, you guys don't understand how goooood we click and how good we bond. You don't know how much he comforts me, and how good he takes care of me. You guys don't know how happy he makes me. I don't need to change for the guy, I love him & I love who I am when I'm with him. If you guys can't have my back this time, it's coo 'cause I already have my Bestfriend.
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| Ain't nobody ever prove their love when things are all good
And two people are smiling
Love is found way down in the trenches
When he's throwin a fit
And she's sittin there crying
We tear it up, tear it up
To patch it up, patch it up
Break up to make up
The show goes round and round
And that how we get down
We go back and forth
And anyone who goes through this should know
That what I am saying is for real
Real love is meant this way
We say things that we don't mean
And that's the way love works out sometimes
He's trippin
She's trippin
And we both be trippin and
That's the way love works out sometimes
Cause when it's on it's on
And your no longer stressin'
And life teaches a lesson
That love is still a blessin
Cause when it's all said and done
We're back at square one
And that's the way love works out sometimes
What you know bout screamin' yellin' cussin' pushin' and rumblin' and arguin'
Like it's 12 rounds
Up inside the garden
I say where the hell you going
You say I'm getting up out of here
And I say you ain't going no where
Then I follow you down the stairs
Get in front of you and I scream
Times like this I know you're still the one
And the truth is this is really love
And ooooh yeah
When I feel like going off
I brush my shoulders off
And you know
We say things that we don't mean
And that's the way love works out sometimes
He's trippin
She's trippin
And we both be trippin and
That's the way love works out sometimes
Cause when it's on it's on
And your no longer stressin'
And life teaches a lesson
That love is still a blessin
Cause when it's all said and done
We're back at square one
And that's the way love works out sometimes
You won't believe it until you see it
How much you need somebody
(need somebody)
And you'll never know how far you'll go
When you love somebody
(love somebody)
Ooohooh
Sometimes we say the craziest things | | |
| Ultimately, it's me that makes my own decisions. I have my own separate flaws, along with my share of mistakes. Not my friends, they never mend mine. But whether we like it or not, our friends have a lot to do with what type of accommodation we make. In a relationship, there just has to be so much compromising, which leads to so much compensation. And trust is a major factor. Honesty doesn't mean anything if you don't have trust. Achieving the perfect trust can be hard, even if you're so pure. | | |
| Yours was the perfect love, I swear it was
Until I had your love, my world was cold
I did what most men do, and I messed it up
But when I got you back, my world was whole
(The player thing I let it go, thought our life was set in stone)
But it wasn’t, and I’m here alone
(Nothing is in front of me, I feel I can’t even breathe)
Don’t think that I can handle this baby I’m so...
I’m so in agony, look at the state of me
Left here, broken
You said you’d never leave, look what you’ve done to me
Left here, broken
Where do I go from here, I’m so lost
Do you know how hard it is?
Fighting my way through this
Shouldn’t even be like this
Shouldn’t have to feel like this, noo noooo noo
(Can’t even have company, nobody can talk to me)
I’m messed up, all that I find myself doing
(Looking at my gallery, drinking and smoking weed)
I hate you for doing this to me, I’m so...
I’m so in agony, look at the state of me
Left here, broken
You said you’d never leave, look what you’ve done to me
Left here, broken | | |
| My break and the holidays were fambase plus the boyfriend. I didn't get all that many presents. Or well, I got cash rather than gifts, but I never complain. I'm not so much of the greedy material type girl anyways. My New Year's was crap. I spent it with people I didn't know and careless of what was going on. It's whatever now, atleast I got my New Year's kiss. I think about it time to time, and remind myself of what a shitty New Year's I had, but I shouldn't dwell on it anymore. What's done is done. Welcome 2008, be good to me. | | |
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